It felt like a long week to me; although I was busy running errands and taking care of stuff. I was able to schedule several DR appts in one day so I was poked and prodded from head-to-toe. I have a wonderful DR as she takes the time to listen and check things out. Glad I fasted, as I had to give several tubes of blood. No worries - I'm healthy. A few age related items to keep an eye on, but nothing out of the ordinary. Although I was not happy to hear that I shrunk a little..ok really? I'm short enough...LOL! I did find out I had not imagined something wrong with my left foot (same foot I fractured several years ago)...I broke the bone under my baby toe and have hobbled on it for about a year. Now I have the post operative shoe and insoles for both feet. I can't walk barefoot and need to wear hard bottom/enclosed shoes...how to make a woman feel old...LOL! Although test results are available via a portal, the Dr took the time to contact me Friday night at home; so I could pick up the shoe yesterday. I even received acupuncture treatment yesterday - felt great after not having in such a long time. Hoping once the foot is healed, I can head back to Jazzercise (so miss it) and yoga (need to research if I can do this with shoes on). I think I'm done with the gym, but I won't rule joining again at some point.
I'm still checking out mattresses. The sleep number is so expensive and I know I'm worth it, but at the same time...$$$. I have to think about how and what to spend money on these days. I'm not broke, just being a bit more cautious until I decide if I want to work.
This next part is hard to write, but I am nothing if not about trying to learn and perhaps teach. I realized this past week that I've been basically by myself for a long time. So I am feeling a bit socially awkward...I know that sounds weird for me, but I've always been a bit shy (unless work involved). I try to say Hi to neighbors and people as I walk Lady (because that's what I did in Plymouth) and hardly anyone responds. I guess they think it's weird and I get that it's part of society today. I find myself not really venturing out and finding excuses to stay home. I know it's because I've been away for a while and trying to ease back into my life and whatever the new normal will look like for me. I've driven around to get my bearings and I am astonished at the buildings that have disappeared and high-rises appear instead. I saw two of my former work sites empty and the buildings being prepared to be torn down. I guess I took a walk down memory lane. I made myself go out to lunch yesterday, eat in the restaurant, and read my book (I used to do it all the time without any qualms). So perhaps that was the first step in trying for a new norm.
I also realize that I'm in the grieving process and there is a little of depression mixed in. Sometimes I just want to ugly cry, but I don't. When I feel like this, I think of the strong women whom have influenced my life and pull it together. Don't get me wrong, I shed tears and my heart hurts, but I am who I am. I am in several stages of grief at the same time which is not a bad thing as I do not want to wallow in any one stage. Someone told me to just enjoy retirement for a few months until I am ready...not sure for what yet, but hopefully I'll know it when I see it. So I'm trying to keep my heart and mind open.
I forget to bring some of stones with me from Plymouth so I went to Crystalis in Herndon yesterday. I have always enjoyed venturing into this store. I was able to pick up a few things (pictured below). I will tune the pendulum this week. I purchased rose quartz as it aids in healing.
The daily and wacky holidays for the week...provides something lighthearted to think about:
10 Daylight Savings begins at 2:a.m. - date varies
10 International Find a Pay Phone Booth Day
10 Middle Name Pride Day
11 Johnny Appleseed Day
11 Worship of Tools Day - guys, you can relate
12 Girl Scouts Day
12 Plant a Flower Day
13 Ear Muff Day
13 Jewel Day
14 Learn about Butterflies Day
14 National Potato Chip Day
14 National Pi Day- Why today? Because today is 3.14, the value of Pi.
14 Popcorn Lover's Day second Thursday
15 Dumbstruck Day
15 Everything You Think is Wrong Day
15 Ides of March
16 Everything You Do is Right Day
16 Freedom of Information Day
16 Giant Panda Bear Day
16 International Sports Car Racing Day - third Saturday of month
16 National Quilting Day - third Saturday of month
I am going to leave it here for today. I hope you have a good week. Take care. Chat soon. Marie
“A big part of being a well-adjusted person is accepting that you can’t be good at everything.” - – Kelly Williams Brown
“Even if happiness forgets you a little bit, never completely forget about it.” - – Jacques Prevert
“The meaning of life is to find your gift. The purpose of life is to give it away.” - – Anonymous