Overall, it was a pretty good week. I donated all of papa's medical equipment to the VA for distribution to other vets in need. Clothes were also donated to a charity - not nearly finished, but at least it was started. I am doing a little bit every day so as not to be overwhelmed. It's amazing to find some family history by reviewing old birth, marriage, divorce and death certificates. I guess my grandmother, which means, in turn, my father, held some of the family papers. I have to say I am in a good place, I feel the love and support of many people as I weave through the process.
I am constantly amazed at how the bureaucracy works - sometimes good/sometimes frustrating. I went to town hall about a letter my mom received from the census. Although I have POA and provided proof of her disease and living situation, they require her signature on the paperwork. I did not get angry although I could feel myself wanting to freak out a little. They said, this is the only thing that does not accept a POA. I just walked away before I got angry. At least I fixed Lady's registration to show me as the owner for licensing purposes. Perhaps I am one of the few people that worry about identity theft so I have done everything I can to update papa's records and close out anything in his name.
Lady, on the other hand, is acting out a little bit. I did drop off a stool sample at the vet to be sure nothing is wrong. I am truly hoping she is not ill and have adjusted her diet a bit at the vet's suggestion. We had a nice walk at 3:30 am on Thursday with a bright full moon. We only walked a short distance (stayed in lighted areas) as in this community there are coyotes. The next night I could hear the howling (it was loud and awful) and I thanked Lady that she did not have to go out. Of course, it could be because she looks like a big dust mop that's impacting her behavior as I am so behind with her grooming. She will get groomed on Tuesday, so perhaps that will help her well being.
I am slowly doing things for myself as well. Spending quality time with friends and family (although there are piles around for sorting I'm having friends over for breakfast this morning). As I have told people as long as my mom is alive I will stay around here - does not matter how long. Perhaps though, I can start planning some time away. I am changing up when I visit mom - still every day - different times, different durations. It helps me meet the majority of staff and keep an eye on things. A few people have asked me, "does your mom ask about your dad?" The answer is not directly. She asked me the other day (out of the blue) what happened to that guy? I said, "what guy?" She said, the one that used to own this place? I replied, "I don't think I know who you mean so I guess I have not seen him." She said, ok. I then changed direction.
I found myself not watching the news as much this past week. I do not look at the world through rose colored glasses, but sometimes I think the coverage is too much. I know emotionally I could not listen another moment. I have never used this blog for political reasons and I won't now. Something needs to be done, I don't know what and I will not speculate as to the process. I just wish people could/would focus on how to aid and uplift others.
To my friends celebrating birthdays - Wishing you much love and hugs!
I am going to end it here today. I need to get ready for breakfast...I can't believe I wrote the majority of this blog without coffee...so if it does not make sense you know why...LOL! I hope you have a wonderful week. Take care. Chat soon. Marie
“Quiet the mind, and the soul will speak.” - ― Ma Jaya Sati Bhagavati, The 11 Karmic Spaces: Choosing Freedom from the Patterns That Bind You
“You do not need to work to become spiritual. You are spiritual; you need only to remember that fact. Spirit is within you. God is within you. (67)” - ― Julia Cameron, God is No Laughing Matter
“Spirituality is not adopting more beliefs and assumptions but uncovering the best in you.” - ― Amit Ray, Beautify your Breath - Beautify your Life