Hi Everyone. Hope this finds you well. A second day in a row of a glorious dawn after a week of heat and humidity. I look at dawn as another opportunity for a good day. Although it does not always work out, I try to count my blessings at the end of the day and focus on the positive. Another good morning for porch sitting and reading (at least until Lady wakes up). The weather must have been better yesterday as Lady willingly went on a few walks throughout the day and none of that happened over the past week.
I have to admit it was a rough week mentally, emotionally and physically. I take responsibility for a lot of it as I let things get to me instead of processing and moving on. Sometimes when the hurt feels too deep it's hard to move through, but eventually I get there. I am sure the people around me as well as myself are tired of hearing me say I'm tired. I'm trying to come up with better terminology. Most of the time I just say I'm fine, so as to not impose my tiredness on others or have them perceive me as being negative. Yet this past week it showed up in almost everything I did.
Wednesday, I was so tired that I hit the wall to so speak. I needed a nap and instead of my normal chair or couch I fell across the stripped down bed and passed out! My body and mind believe that bed is for sleeping longer periods than a nap entails for me. I do mean passed out because I was jolted awake by my niece and I looked at her and said, "I'm tired." I remember thinking before I fell asleep, the back door is unlocked and no company is expected, ok go to sleep. I honestly don't know how long I was asleep, but I believe the house could have been ransacked and I would have slept through the whole thing. My niece told me she had tried to wake me up several times, but I did not move. I got up and came out, I knew they had been here a while when I saw my brother-in-law had a cup of coffee. I was a bit embarrassed, but hey I did not expect anyone. I am glad they woke me up, we visited for a while and then they went off to watch fireworks somewhere in Plymouth. Hope they got to see them and found parking.
Hope you got to watch fireworks and spend time with family and/or friends. It was fairly quiet for me and I recorded the fireworks in NYC and Boston and watched the next day. I heard the fireworks here in the community (the owners of the park shoot them off over the family-owned cranberry bogs). They must have permission as I understand they do it every year.
I finally responded to the letter I received from "the Club" here in the community. I believe this is what took up most of my energy this past week. Thank you my friend Mary for reading the first draft. Although I tightened it up, it turned out to be over 2 pages long. As I was shorthanded in the aide department, I did not get it into the mail box until Wednesday. I guess it was not fast enough as I received a second letter which was more of a twisting of the knife, but immediately got my blood boiling. I have already responded to the second letter (much shorter response) and they should receive on Monday/Tuesday. Don't worry I did not use profanity or bad words in either letter. I maintained my professionalism and dignity...LOL!!! Phew I just laughed about the situation must mean I'm moving through it.
One of the questions that Mary posed to me in reviewing my response was: Do you want to help or do you want to be right? I had to think about it for a minute, but I responded with probably a bit of both at some point, my goal is normally to help. In looking at the week, I was a bit stuck in the "I am right" phase. I truly try to take the emotion out of the situation and look at the facts (you know me facts/documentation). Do you get stuck in the "I am right" phase? How do you move through it?
I did get some reading done. I finished: PALACE OF TREASON by James Matthews. It's the second novel in the Red Sparrow Trilogy. It was very good and had me intrigued the whole book. I also finished another James Patterson novel. I enjoy Patterson because I can read through his books quickly and he always have something interesting in them. Even with all the writers he works with there is definitely to me a "Patterson style."
My thoughts and prayers are with those young men in Thailand this morning as they start the rescue process. It's been hard watching this most of the week and I can't even comprehend what their families are going through. Please keep them in your prayers.
I am going to leave it here for today. I need to get a few things done before my mom wakes up - she might sleep for a while as I repositioned her and freshened her up just before 5. Perhaps I'll do some food prep or then again just might pick up a book and sit on the porch for a while. Have a good week. Take care. Chat soon. Marie
Quotes today are geared toward summer...
Bryan Procter - "Oh, the summer night, has a smile of light, and she sits on a sapphire throne."
Jenny Uglow - "We might think we are nurturing our garden, but of course it's our garden that is really nurturing us."
Jeanette Walls - "One benefit of summer was that each day we had more light to read by."