I managed to move quite a bit of the Christmas stuff from the house to the shed. Once the snow and ice melted I rushed out there with a few totes and boxes. I purged a few items and managed to have the items that are precious all fit in one closet in the house. I found out the shed floor gets wet when there is a lot of snow and ice around it so I had to be sure items were up on the shelves or stacked on top of other items. In the spring when it's a little warmer, I will work on re-organizing a bit. I can see quite a bit of the sun porch floor for the first time in a while - guess that means I'm making progress.
Lady will definitely be sleeping in this morning as I stayed up past her bedtime (she was not too happy) to watch the football game...YEAH PATS!!!! Any how it is funny to watch her internal clock tell her when it's time to eat, walk, snack and go to bed. She was groomed on Friday so we at least missed the huge freeze. Her new winter jacket will definitely be worn now that she's short haired. Grooming for me this coming week as I look like a shaggy dog.
I am a person that really tries to take a back seat and help from behind the scenes. I always wanted to be a "go to" person, but not always the head honcho. For as long as I can remember I have been able to help others, whether as a conduit for introductions, finding a way to make things work or being a voice of reason. But again, I like to be behind the scenes. For some reason, in many instances, I end up front and center, not sure why except I usually can't keep my mouth shut or my face bland...LOL! If anything, I am honest and root for fairness and equity. I seem to draw people that need assistance and hopefully I can provide it. I know that my honesty is not always welcome, but don't ask me if you don't want to know (I remember several instances at work where my honesty backfired, but it all worked out). The problem is that I want to jump in and FIX things and sometimes I need to, but other times I need to take a step back and let others handle it themselves with encouragement of course. I just need to recognize the difference and be the sounding board and not the super hero (LOL)! Another words, some coaching of myself once in a while.
I write the above as a way to process happenings around me. There are a few things here in the community that are happening between personalities and I've become a sounding board somewhat. Perhaps it's because I'm not afraid to question things (you know me always asking questions) or perhaps because I won't be rolled over too easily when I see others trying to bully their way around. Either way, working on a few things and assisting a few people in the community. We'll see what happens in the next few weeks.
I have not been sleeping well as I've had some stuff weighing on my heart and mind. Although I don't remember dreams I know I've been tossing and turning a lot. Of course, I'm then tired which makes me overthink and oversensitive. Ah the vicious circle of life. As is for many of you, there is only so much I can take and I've been over my tolerance level in a particular situation for a bit. I've prayed and meditated to come up with a workable solution and I'm starting to distance myself to protect myself and we'll see what happens. Sometimes we have to let go in order to see what happens next. If the situation resolves itself it will be with a whole new set of guidelines. What do you do when you've reached your tolerance level? What does it look like for you? Do you draw a line in the sand (I've feel like mentally I did that)?
I am a bit behind in my reading as I have a tendency to sit and play Solitaire on the computer. I did finish a book this past week: "THE UNLIKELY PILGRIMAGE OF HAROLD FRY" by Rachel Joyce. A very good story about a retired man who walks 600 miles across England to see someone under hospice care. It is about so many things including unpacking the baggage he carries in his heart and finding his life. I laughed and I cried. What are you reading?
I am going to leave it here for today. The sky is lighter although the clouds appear heavy at the moment. I feel like I might need a nap later. I'm going to finish my coffee and take something for this headache. I hope you have a good week where ever you are on your journey. Take care. Chat soon. Marie
"Sometimes it's the journey that teaches you a lot about your destination. " - Drake
"Going by my past journey, I am not certain where life will take me, what turns and twists will happen; nobody knows where they will end up. As life changes direction, I'll flow with it." - Katrina Kaif
"Transformation is a process, and as life happens there are tons of ups and downs. It's a journey of discovery - there are moments on mountaintops and moments in deep valleys of despair." - Rick Warren