Lady raised her get when I got of bed this morning - looked at me - and tucked it right back down into her bed. I have been in/out of the room since and she is not even stirring. I wish sometimes I could sleep like her. I thought she might get up when I made coffee, but so far she's sleeping.
This morning I have to say the house smells awesome. I put boneless ribs in the crock pot with a honey teriyaki marinade last night before bed and let the simmer all night. This morning I will put in the oven to finish off and crisp up a little before dinner. Still working on the sides, but I'm sure it will be starch of some sort. You know that means I'm having company as I don't normally cook for myself.
I had an overall good week. I was able to touch base and catch-up with a few different people- even got out to lunch twice. I went to an awesome group meditation session - so much love. I spend a lot of time alone which makes it difficult not to overtake the conversation when I'm with others. I sometimes have to give myself clues as to when to "listen" vice "talk." I have to say when I go out to lunch at least it gives me an excuse to dress in something other than sweats and fleece...LOL!!! I still could be a model for "What Not To Wear." I actually put on jeans and earrings and yesterday my fancy dancy combat/work boots (still protecting the toes).
I told someone that there are times when I am ambushed my feelings of anger and resentment as many people are. I am human after all and not every day is filled with sunshine and roses. I know this is part of the grieving process in many ways. When these feelings come about I try to stay present. I know I can't change the past, the circumstances and/or people that bring these about and as the saying goes I should, "Let it go!" Not easy and sometimes it takes a bit of time. Sometimes I just take a nap as I'm feeling overwhelmed with tiredness. But, normally I try figure out what's triggering the feelings. I also try to focus focus focus on the blessings in my life. It does not matter if they are big/small as long as I know they are blessings. It's the little things in life that matter. We all go through "stuff" and we all go through it at our own pace...the main part is to go through not get stuck.
I have to admit that I have not read one page of one book in over a week. I have focused on cleaning out one drawer at a time. I am happy to say that one whole bureau is empty. I have a found a few things that I need to research further (thank goodness for the internet) but overall I believe everything will be going to the right places. As I mentioned previously my mantra has become "will the next generation even care?" My other mantra is "what will the next generation do with it?"
The daily and wacky holidays for the week...provides something lighthearted to think about (Sorry that I missed it last week - I could have sworn that I included it):
14 Ex Spouse Day
14 International Moment of Laughter Day
14 Look up at the Sky Day - don't you have anything better to do?
14 National Dolphin Day
14 National Pecan Day
14 Palm Sunday - date varies
14 Reach as High as You Can Day
15 Income Taxes Due (most years, it's on the 15th)
15 Patriot's Day - third Monday of the month
15 Rubber Eraser Day
15 That Sucks Day
15 Titanic Remembrance Day
15 World Art Day
16 Mushroom Day
16 National Eggs Benedict Day
16 National Librarian Day
16 National Stress Awareness Day
16 Save the Elephant Day
17 Bat Appreciation Day
17 Blah, Blah, Blah Day
17 National Cheeseball Day
17 Pet Owners Independence Day
18 International Juggler's Day - also applies to multi tasking office workers
18 National High Five Day third Thursday
18 Newspaper Columnists Day
19 Good Friday - date varies
19 National Garlic Day
19 Passover begins at sundown - date varies
20 Chinese Language Day
20 Husband Appreciation Day - third Saturday in April
20 Look Alike Day
20 Volunteer Recognition Day
21 Easter Sunday - date varies
21 Kindergarten Day
Happy Belated Birthday to my awesome Blue Eyed Nephew Brian. He turned 18 - so many adventures await him (some even include me).
I am going to leave it here for today. I hope you have a good week and find a few things to smile about. Take care. Chat soon. Marie
"It's not an easy journey, to get to a place where you forgive people. But it is such a powerful place, because it frees you.- Tyler Perry
"Letting go helps us to to live in a more peaceful state of mind and helps restore our balance. It allows others to be responsible for themselves and for us to take our hands off situations that do not belong to us. This frees us from unnecessary stress." - Melody Beattie