It was a crazy week for me between the weather (yes another Nor'Easter), broken crown (and I don't mean a tiara) and Lady's check up. Due to major power outages and trees down in the area many appointments were canceled. My furniture donations should be picked up tomorrow (postponed from last week)...I need to get items finalized today guess I'll be flexing my muscles a bit. Once the furniture is gone I can focus on making a comfortable place for my mom.
I had an old crown break off, but luckily it broke cleanly. I called a local dentist I used previously for another crown and they fit me in the next day. That's what I get for eating JuJu Fruits..guess that was my last time and to be honest they were not that good. I saw them when I was shopping and suddenly wanted them...well no more of that..LOL! The dentist did say I took good care of my teeth and there was no tarter - that made me feel really good as I barely floss. As I told the dentist, I usually pick up the pace about two weeks before the annual appointment. What about you?
Lady had her annual checkup. She's not doing too bad for her age although she/we gained a few pounds over the winter. Vet said she's not obese, but starting to creep toward the higher end of weight class. She does have some kidney issues and some arthritis so for the first time ever I had to go to the pharmacy for a prescription for the dog. She literally had to be entered into the system and now has an account. I also had to purchase prescription food so I learned I needed a prescription card before I can even buy. Although it's on the shelf in the store I need a card in order to actually purchase. So far Lady is not a big fan of the medication or the food, but we'll keep trying. She does make me laugh as she tries to avoid the medication.
I am receiving training from the nursing home in order to care for my mom at home from the nurses and CNAs. My parents always took care of their own glucose checks (both diabetics) and insulin shots until they could not. So I learned this past week how to handle this. This coming week I will learn about the hoyer lift and how to move my mother. I am so blessed in that several people have reached out to help or recommend others that can assist. I'm working on phone calls (now that the phone works again) and setting up a schedule. In a little over a week mom will be home. It will be interesting to see what she thinks of Lady.
I will say my emotions are somewhat all over the place. There are days when I feel like I'm on a lone journey although I know I'm not. I am so blessed to be surrounded by people that want to help and support. Although many of you know I don't ask for help much, I have gotten better and know I can't do this alone. I will suddenly want to weep at the drop of a hat. I can feel my patience wearing thin at the nursing home - although I'm doing my best to keep my mouth shut knowing there is only a short time left. It's always the small things that get to me, whether it be how horrible the food looks/tastes to other residents having my mom's personal blankets/pillows. My heart hurts as I see the other residents moving to another phase or when they pass. I work on the energy with meditation/prayer and carry stones with me. Whether you believe in energy work or not, I do and that's what matters.
I want to say I am a daughter, not a good person, not a saint (boy do I know that), I am a daughter. I am not bringing my mother home to obtain sainthood or make anyone else feel bad. I am doing what I feel is the right thing to do. I write this because so many have said, "you are such a good daughter!" I am not a "good" daughter, yet I am a daughter. I am doing what I believe I was raised to do and I am blessed that I can. As I have said previously, if my mother was mobile I honestly do not think I would take her home as I know for a fact that I would not be able to monitor her 24/7. I would not want to "lock" us in for her protection. So no matter if she's home for a day, a month, or years, I am doing what I was meant to do and I'm in the place I was meant to be.
I am going to leave it here for today. I hope you have a wonderful week. Take care. Chat soon. Marie
"Smile more than you cry, give more than you take and love more than you hate." - Author Unknown
“There is always something new to learn and feel each Sunday.” - Bishop Gerald Causse
"SUNDAY. Take it slow and give your soul a chance to catch up with your body.” - Author Unknown