I would like to offer my prayers and sympathies to the families and victims in San Bernadino. What a tragedy. I can't put into words how I felt when the news came across. I never want to feel like it's just another day in the U.S. as it was stated in a European newspaper. I don't know the answers, but I pray for peace.
It has been a gorgeous week weather wise with frost in the mornings and warmer temps in the afternoons. It has been great for getting things done. I hope you have been successful in your accomplishments. Do you make lists upon lists upon lists? I do make some lists when I feel there is a lot going on. Normally, once I write it down I'm pretty good about getting it done, but it's good to have the list to fall back on when needed.
I spent a lot of the week catching up with my mom and the others at the nursing home. My mom is at a good plateau. She is still very alert and loves to observe people. The staff tells me they love her sarcasm. She still is a picky eater although sometimes it is like dealing with a child when I tell her the last time they served this you loved it. I have to admit there are days when I look at the food and think what are they trying to serve to these old people? Thank goodness for alternatives like soup and sandwiches. I told the social worker the other day that over the past year I have learned so much about myself by observing my mom. I remember when I was younger that I wanted to be different than my mom. I'm sure many other women feel the same way - we want to be different, stronger, more accomplished, etc. Now, I realize how much strength I have because of my mom. As I write this my eyes are tearing up and my heart is hurting a little. I just want to be there for my mom like she was for me all those many years ago.
While I was in Virginia last month, my father hired someone to drive him back/forth two days a week. Turns out he hated taking the bus as it was not his own personal service. I was a little thrown when I found out he plans to continue the service while I'm here. I have to admit my first thoughts were about me..what am I supposed to do? does he not want me here any longer? what's the point of me being here? I know how selfish I may seem to you because I was. When I took a few steps back and thought about it I knew I needed to think about him. I also realized his secret plan was that he visit my mom in the morning and then I can visit later in the day so she has more company. It works out especially with Christmas this month as I can run errands and get shopping done without too much worry. At least we are saving a little money and calories as we will not eat out as much.
With this new free time, I decided it was time to find a job. I know many of you think I'm crazy, but I want to feel useful and needed and except for the past 18 months I worked since I was 16. I went on a preliminary job interview to be a home care companion/aid (nothing medical), but the company does not want someone every other month. I understand it completely, but it also means I'm disappointed. Since I have not been working with too many coaching clients and my other business is almost completely closed I thought it would be good to put some of my talents to work helping the elderly (I have learned so much over the past year). I'll keep looking as this company gave me some ideas that I need to follow up with. Any ideas?
I have not finished any books although I did get my Xmas cards done and mailed.
Last night I had a girls night out with my sister and niece. We had a fun dinner and then we saw the Vienna Boys Choir. Oh my goodness, their voices are what I imagine angels singing would be like. They were accompanied by a piano only. The show was simple and fantastic. I may never get to Vienna to see them so I'm happy that we could see them locally. We had a wonderful evening and then my niece stayed over and we finished some shopping today. She surprised me by asking me to be her sponsor for her confirmation in the spring. I am honored and will register at my dad's church so I can do the right things along the way. I can honestly say that I think this was the first time in a very long time that my niece and I spent 24 hours together and we did not argue or get upset with each other. I'm definitely embracing this new found peace.
I am going to leave it here for tonight. I hope you have a good week and don't let the stress of the holiday get to you. Take care. Chat soon. Marie
"Happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, worn or consumed. Happiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace, and gratitude." Denis Waitley
"You have to grow from the inside out. None can teach you, none can make you spiritual. There is no other teacher but your own soul." Swami Vivekananda
"Keep your feet on the ground, but let your heart soar as high as it will. Refuse to be average or to surrender to the chill of your spiritual environment." Arthur Helps
Referrals are always welcome.