With this rainy weather all I want to do is sleep. Of course, I don't, but I swear I could take a nap any where at any time. Are you as impacted by the weather as I am? Even Lady just wants to sleep and is not too happy when I pull her outside to do her business. This morning she was a little peppier as it was only drizzling.
I use sleep as a sort of escape. I learned through the years that if I did not feel well to take a nap or head to bed) mema's cure. Although my BFF knows that when I need a nap I literally drop my head and go out for a little bit, I have not taken a nap in what seems like forever. A couple of times I thought I'm ready for a nap, and then papa calls out for something. I think sometimes I go to bed just to avoid doing or dealing with other things. I realized that although I may not feel rested when I awake, I sleep heavily for several hours. I am in bed and attempting to get more sleep than I have in almost 35 years. I was able to function on a max of five hours of sleep, but now I sleep between 6 and 7 and I'm still exhausted. I don't dream or if I do there is no memory of them. All I know is that no matter how tired I feel, I need to keep moving forward just like everyone else. I got off the treadmill of work, but jumped on the treadmill of caregiving. I guess I can say for sure that the treadmill of caregiving is definitely more exhausting than work was all those years. I'm not sure if this makes sense to you or not. I think several of you can relate in one way or another. Let me know what you think.
I had a silly accident at the beginning of the week and still have some of the aftereffects. For those that did not see FB here is the funny story: This morning I was putting linens and comforters away in Papa's room. He told me specifically where to put a couple of items. His recliner is almost touching the bed so I decided to roll over the top of the bed to put things on the other side. No problem getting into the corner and putting things away. Time to roll back.....Not sure what I did, but I went ass over teakettle (so to speak) and hit the floor with my knee (thank goodness not my head). It probably looked like a gymnastic move gone wrong...LOL! Also jammed ring finger on left hand as well as the right wrist and middle finger. Nothing broken - promise I can move. Thank goodness there were no cameras rolling or it would definitely be a funny video moment.
Any way, took a second to get up after checking to make sure I could really move. Papa is laughing and then said, do I need to take you to the fracture clinic?? I said no I'm good.
I will say, I have never bruised so quickly...lovely shade of purple showing up, but I can move everything (some things a little tenderly). Motrin and ice packs are my friends today. I'm typing this to keep my fingers moving.
Update: I have bruises turning all shades of black and blue, but no permanent damage as far as I know. I can't put too much weight on the wrist or the finger, but carry everything I need to carry either up on the arm of over the shoulder. Mema does not call me a bag lady for nothing.
Papa is on the mend and is getting restless. The weather held him a bit hostage as he did not want to be transported in the rain. He so wants to remove the braces and keeps saying I can stand if I need to without the braces. The visiting nurse and I need to keep saying you better not test that theory yet. Another 10 days or so and he should be set free (we hope). He had to go for treatment in Boston (overnight) and everything seemed to go well. Of course, he does not say much, but he did say this really hurt and they did not put him under. I was so surprised by both comments as everything I read indicated he would be put under for a bit. Guess I need to ask more questions. I am making him corned beef and cabbage (my first time) for dinner today, hopefully it will all go over well.
I have not been reading much except for newspapers and mail. I'm hoping to create a little time every day to read a few pages starting today. We'll see how it goes.
I am going to end it here today. I hope you have a wonderful day and week. Be kind when you can. Take care. Chat soon. Marie
"Never give up, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn." - Harriet Beecher Stowe
"It is by going down into the abyss that we recover the treasures of life. Where you stumble, there lies your treasure." - Joseph Campbell
"Happiness resides not in possessions and not in gold, the feeling of happiness dwells in the soul." - Democritus