I had a heartfelt conversation with papa the other day that left me speechless. I scheduled an appointment with the eldercare attorney as I want to be sure a few things are in order and papa needs to attend. During the conversation, he indicated he is rethinking some decisions previously made. I said no problem let's be sure we get it all in order. He knows he can have this type of conversation with me and I'll be sure it's handled. I joked that I'm the "cold" daughter, he said no you are not cold you just think differently because of the work you've done. He said as long as you take care of your sister then I'm good. He then said to me, "you have no idea what a whole you left in my heart when you left. I was not going to stop you, but you created a big vacuum." I responded with, " I would have moved out at some point." He replied, "I know, but there was a good chance you would have remained local." Let me just say, I was amazed by this conversation as normally we don't go deep into feelings. Papa has always been stoic and hid his feelings. There are times when I get so frustrated by him, but I know without a doubt, I am so blessed and honored to be his daughter.
There is a group on FB called "The Conversation Project" and it's dedicated to helping people have end of life discussions. When I attended the Alzheimer's' Caregivers Conference I met an attorney involved in this group and how they are working with doctors/hospitals/caregivers to ensure people's wishes are documented and honored. It is definitely not an easy conversation, but so vital.
I participated in a class this past week about pendulums. Many of you know I have become fascinated by energy work. I have to say it was awesome. I chose the moonstone pendulum (perhaps I should say it chose me). I carry it in my purse so I can hold it when needed. Moonstone means: Moonstone is said in crystal healing to help calm responses and stress, and avoid overreaction. It brings hope, enhances feminine energies, sensitivity, intuition, and psychic abilities. It is also said to bring strong energies of abundance to one's life.
This past week finished reading one of my many mystery books. I also went to the movies and saw "Wonder Woman." What a good movie and better than I expected. Some parts a little far-fetched, but the overall fantasy of Wonder Woman was there. Special effects were pretty good. I saw regular version not 3D. Good to see a movie with a strong woman lead. I loved the fact that there was no gratuitous sex or bad language.
I can not emphasize enough, in this crazy, mixed-up world we live in, to be grateful for the people in your life. Do not be afraid to say "I Love You" or "I'm glad you are in my life." With that in mind, I say to all of you who follow me: I'M GLAD YOU ARE IN MY LIFE!
I am going to leave it here for today. Papa is getting impatient as his fishing companions have not showed up yet (as he said, they will be late for their own funerals). I may have to drive him to the pier. Have a good week. Take care. Chat soon. Marie
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