I don't know about you, but I am definitely a creature of habit. Of course, over the past few years some of those habits have changed. It's all about change and how I handle it...sometimes all is good...yet sometimes I just feel stressed that it's not going the way I'm used to. I've gotten so much better about going with the flow, but there are times...I'm pretty sure you understand this as well. When my world is upside down and I feel energetically burdened, I need to find that quiet moment to stop and reflect. Yes, I sometimes have to go through a series of questions (you know me...questions questions questions), but I have been bringing out a coaching question I learned years ago...."For the sake of what?" Each time this question pops for me, it makes me stop/pause and then I can take a breath.
There was so much going on energetically in the universe this past week (new super moon, partial solar eclipse, numbers); I was so glad to have massage/energy work on Wednesday and then meditation class on Thursday. Although the massage mainly worked the upper body, my legs/being felt a lot lighter as I released so much stored energy (although sometimes I call it baggage) via the root chakra. During the massage/energy work, a message came through for a friend and it was great to pass it along and have a great catch-up conversation. A message came through for me as well and it was be kind to myself! Imagine that! I know I went to sleep for a little bit during the massage and then the next day during meditation class - just enough to feel refreshed. Since then I have been able to focus a bit more and stay grounded when something goes astray.
My mom had an overall quiet week. She slept a bit more and is definitely not talking as much. She eats fairly well, although sometimes the looks I get; even when feeding her food she has loved in the past; make me laugh. Believe me, she lets me know if she truly does not want it or if she's done. Although she still loves music, she is not as interested as she once was. It was a good day, when Chaplain Jim came because she was up in her chair, hair done and ate a good lunch. Although he has volunteered under hospice for 10 years and understands the process, I felt bad as my mom she barely acknowledged him and slept through a lot of his time. I did see the toes move once in a while, but definitely not as much as in the past. He noticed too and sang upbeat songs that he knows she always liked.
With mom having more down time and lots on TV that I don't feel like watching at that moment, I have caught up on some movies. My interests are all over the place and you will be able to tell I'm way behind the times...LOL!! All those free premium channels over the past couple of weekends enabled me to save to the DVR. Only one had I seen previously and it was good to watch again from a different perspective. I watched: Fried Green Tomatoes; Gifted; Girls Trip; Mistrust; Away From Her; A Woman, A Part; A Mountain Between Us; and Avatar. I also read The President Is Missing by Bill Clinton and James Patterson. What are you watching/reading?
I am going to leave it here for today. I hope you have a good week. Take care. Chat soon. Marie
"Like a welcome summer rain, humor may suddenly cleanse and cool the earth, the air and you." - Langston Hughes
"Rest is not idleness, and to lie sometimes on the grass under trees on a summer's day, listening to the murmur of the water, or watching the clouds float across the sky, is by no means a waste of time." - John Lubbock
"Tears of joy are like the summer rain drops pierced by sunbeams." - Hosea Ballou