...Feminine love is compassionate, nurturing and benevolent, but more than anything it is connected. Authentic feminine love walks in another’s’ shoes easily. It is coupled as one. Real feminine energy understands deeply the concerns of not only one another in the human family but in every soul, animal, plant and mineral. Its deep empathy vibrates through the hearts of all.
I found the above so powerful and meaningful. As I mentioned previously in a blog, I truly believe we are all connected in some way. We move in/out of each other's circles as we are needed. When I think about someone, they usually appear either in person, via phone or FB message (sometimes via all three). When you pass on a smile or a kind word you have connected in one way or another. In my humble opinion, it's important for us to remember how we can impact someone else via a gesture or connection.
Overall, we had a good week here in Plymouth. For the most part, the weather was springlike and the pollen blossomed...LOL! My BFF Patti arrived from VA and has already helped in so many ways. It's nice to have a friend that actually wants to grocery shop or run errands...I'm definitely trying not to take advantage...LOL!
My mom had an overall good week. Only one truly down day of not cooperating with the aide. Of course, it was a new aide. I can't imagine the angst and stress my mom and others with ALZ feel when a complete stranger come in to help in the most private ways. Funny story from last night: Sometimes I can't tell if my mom is asleep or awake when I check on her at night. Sometimes she will suddenly open her eyes and say, "what's the matter?" I usually respond with, "I'm just checking on you." I can see that she's not sure how to process those words, but sometimes she responds with, "I'm sleeping." I then think she is in sort of a limbo land between awake and asleep as she says nothing else. Long story short...Last night she looked at me and said out of nowhere, "how old are you?" I'm not sure she knew who I was at that moment, but I responded with, "I'm almost 60." She looked at me and asked the same question again and I repeated the same answer. She then got this incredulous look on her face and said, "Oh My God, you're that old!" I almost burst out laughing. I said, "how old do you think I am? and How old do you think you are?" She stopped responding at that point and settled down to sleep. She gave me my laugh for the night.
I had a massage and energy work this past week and I must say it was incredible. I can honestly say, I felt surrounded by love during the process which was amazing. I sometimes just go to sleep or relax enough to feel refreshed, but the other day WOW! I felt like I was semi-conscious and just being. Throughout the massage there are different types of stones placed along the chakra to move energy and balance. When it was over the other day, I felt like there was a boulder at the root of my chakra and I was almost afraid to move the blanket as I thought they forgot a stone and it would fly across the room. When we were done and having our summary discussion, I was told that my father's energy was in with me the whole time and also two hearts appeared on me - one at my throat and one at the root of my chakra. The one at the root of my chakra kept growing which is probably why I felt like it was a boulder. When both the massage therapist and energy person are attuned to energy...WOW what an experience! I hope some day you get to have this type of experience.
I finally finished a book...LOL! I read "RED SPARROW" by Jason Matthews. Very good book about espionage/counterespionage and being human. This is part of a trilogy (I have all of them). No I did not see the movie - perhaps someday as you know how far behind I am...LOL!
I forgot last week to mention Nurses' Day. To the nurses in my life, THANK YOU for all you do. It's not a job, but a passion for many of you and that's why you are good at what you do.
I am going to leave it here for today. Need to get moving as I'm making spaghetti sauce (already started) and having a nice Sunday dinner today. I hope you have a good week where you are. Take care. Chat soon. Marie
Howard Johnson: Meaning of Mother
"M" is for the million things she gave me,
"O" means only that she's growing old,
"T" is for the tears she shed to save me,
"H" is for her heart of purest gold;
"E" is for her eyes, with love-light shining,
"R" means right, and right she'll always be,
Put them all together, they spell "MOTHER,"
A word that means the world to me.
- Howard Johnson