I have to admit I'm mixed about the holidays this year. Don't get me wrong - I love Christmas and the spirit of the season. Part of me wants to celebrate and party like everyone else and the other part of me is worn down. I think with all that's happening how and what can we celebrate? It's hard when loved ones are ill or nearing the end of life to see the sparkle. I get a little resentful/jealous (I will admit) of everyone having fun and living life to the fullest. I know and understand the life cycle and love seeing the joy and wonder on the faces of people in general. Then I remember the happier times and try to create new memories for others.I believe helping others whether it be through charity or just being their for a friend is what brings me happiness. I also remember to count my blessings and be grateful for all that there is right now. I know it's ok to be sentimental and emotional, but I won't allow myself to dwell. I have to believe that whether it be in a few weeks or a few months that there will be no pain any more and a new angel. I did not mean to be maudlin this morning, but the above is what came out.
To change the subject a little - I am so far behind in cards and notes to others. I am a person that went into the local Hallmark store monthly and spent quite a few dollars - keeping my platinum membership pristine. Everyone knows when you get on my card list you get a card for almost every holiday throughout the year. Also, that once you are on the list you hardly ever drop off. One of these days I'll get back on track. For those that have reached out and sent me cards whether it be VA or MA - I so appreciate it more than you know. It's amazing to see the pics of kids that are almost grown! Again, you'll hear from me one of these days.
I had a wonderful afternoon/evening with my niece Melanie. She drove herself (yes she can do that now) to visit and spend the night. We did a little bit of shopping for charity (at her suggestion) and had a nice night just hanging out. We will have breakfast out with papa this morning. I am so blessed that she wants to spend time with me.
I finished reading: TRAP by Robert K. Tanenbaum. A thriller from the first page involving murder, larceny, racism and the law. I passed it on at the coffee shop. What are you reading?
I am going to end it here today as Lady just woke up and is ready to go out this chilly morning. It's 10 degrees, but so far clear skies. Snow is expected later tonight/tomorrow so that will definitely make it feel like the holidays. Now to plan dinner for today and Christmas (sometimes I just need to have a plan of action). Have a wonderful week. Take care. Chat soon. Marie
"Every piece of the universe, even the tiniest little snow crystal, matters somehow. I have a place in the pattern, and so do youâ€¦Thinking of you this holiday season!" -- T.A. Barron
"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart. Wishing you happiness." -- Helen Keller