I'm having one of those scattered thought days. It's not just the thoughts, but the emotions as well. I am trying to stay positive, but it's hard as many of you know. I am focusing on gratitude as that always keeps me on the positive. Believe me I know I have many blessings and I try to remember a few of them every day.
Papa kept asking me last week if I'm tired as he says he knows I'm getting weary. I have to admit I am weary, but when I think about what others go through every day I feel guilty about feeling weary. I must admit I feel my patience wearing very think. When I pissed off papa before church this morning I thought, "hmm perhaps I need to keep my mouth shut for a bit!" Of course it was over something stupid and it's blown over now, but it did bring me up short. I realized it was the second or third time in the past few days that papa and I were at odds. I guess it's good that I'm going away for a few days next week.
Mema had a peaceful week which is all I can hope for at this point. She is resting a lot and her attention span is less and less. When I visit most of the time is spent just sitting with her while she naps. I also ensure she eats some supper and stays hydrated. I'm grateful for this time I can sit with her and sometimes hold her hand or rub her arm. There are hardly any conversations any longer as it's more difficult for her to put words together and so many memories are no longer there for her. For my entire life I remember my mom saying "God Bless You" before I left or before bed. I still feel my mom is present when each night before I leave she says "God Bless You" to me after our kiss.
I finished two murder mysteries and a bunch of newspapers this past week and started another two books. Always have to have a book close by. What are you reading these days?
I have to say I am fascinated by the show "The Story of God With Morgan Freeman". I mentioned it previously and each time I watch another session I learn something else. Each time he goes to Israel, memories come forward from my visit there many years ago with my friend Mary. I find myself saying to the TV, I've been there or I remember that.
I am going to end it here for today. Lady is staring at me as she needs a walk. The life I lead these days!! I hope you have a good week. Take care. Chat soon. I'll be more refreshed for the next blog. Marie.
"Keep close to Nature's heart... and break clear away, once in awhile, and climb a mountain or spend a week in the woods. Wash your spirit clean." - John Muir
"Many people feel so pressured by the expectations of others that it causes them to be frustrated, miserable and confused about what they should do. But there is a way to live a simple, joy-filled, peaceful life, and the key is learning how to be led by the Holy Spirit, not the traditions or expectations of man." - Joyce Meyer
Referrals are appreciated.